What did I just do

I've been thinking about doing it for a while now. I'm surprised I didn't the last time. Guys, I don't know what I just did or why I did it. It just kind of happened. I was on Pinterest and *BOOM* next thing I know I'm cutting. It happened last night to except for I just kind of made scratch marks with a safety pin. Tonight I actually cut and bled. I know it's not a good coping mechanism, and that I shouldn't have done it. But I did. And as bad as I know it is to say this, I kind of enjoyed it. Now I'm just sitting here staring at the cuts. They're fascinating in their own morbid kind of way and I like them. I want to keep cutting, I don't know why. I don't even know what I'm doing or who I at this point. Shit.